Today is my big day, my ceremony day. I should have felt excited, but actually, not really, in an opposite way, I felt extremely lonely; parents and family were not here with me, none of important childhood friends was there...When I was sitting in the main hall to hear the dean's speech, I felt full of tears in my eyes. From that moment, I have realized that how much my family and old friends means to me. I cant bear to think about how many spring festivals I have missed with my whole family and how many years I have not seen my old friends. When I walked to the dean, I knew lots of people were watching me, but only one best friend was sitting at my guest seat place sharing that moment with me...I feel it is pathetic. I feel like this sort of life is not what I want. What is the point of staying here? Nobody shares my achievement with me, noboday is there when I need in a real sense. I smiled to people, when they said " Congratulations" to me, but honestly I know in my heart, it is probably only what I can get in England from the people here...a simple and easy word " Congratulations", that is it! I wish I had graduated in China, it must be a lot of people around and a nice dinner were waiting for me when I got home...especially lots of hugs and kisses...

 

I heard back from my lawyer yesterday, I get an extended visa for another year and half, but I feel like it is probably a time to go home...