taoer: July, 2007

July 18

When the day my trust to you collapsed,

it gradually made me relize that

" I am not bone of your bones &

flesh of your flesh"

I felt disappointed.

Your initial silence made me sad

and your later explanation just seems in vain and hollow.

I dont know what should I say and how should I act;

just full of disappointments and sadness to you and to myself.

Still until now you have missed what I really want

and even now you still do not know what words I seek from you.

But all does not matter now,

it is probably just the difference between the nature of yours and mine,

For this reason it determines our lives will be in parallel from now on with no convergency...

To a special you in my life, and now I want a full stop. Thank you God.

July 11

Today we studied Genesis. The paragraph below is the summary of God’s seven days’ amazing work.

First day: God created light and darkness.

Second day: God expanse water to make sky.

Third day: God created land, sea and vegetations.

Fourth day: God creates sun, moon and stars.

Fifth day: God creates fish and then birds.

Sixth day: God creates other animals and humans.

Seventh day: God finished all his work and blessed all of his creatures.

At this moment, I want to share my mood with you.

Don’t know since when I have started to reject the music.

Felt scared to listen to the lyrics and the melody;

Music is like a magician who is always able to recall my memory with joy and tear.

But I think I am the person who loves music

Which God made me even before I was born.

Today, alone, sitting on the coach to London,

I let my emotion goes with the music all way down.

I felt indulged and joy,

I am happy of being my self,

Happy allowing the music to touch my sensitive nerves again,

Even felt a little bit pain in my heart for some how.

BUT I LIKE IT. NO REASON TO REJECT YOUR NATURE WHICH GOD GAVE TO YOU...